shame on you

i realize that involving myself in qs is equal to work with other people by grouping. About 95 % of my assignments, coursework, and bla...bla...bla... is engaging  with my group members. The weakest part is to be in the group, giving the full commitment for the group is the crucial part. i know that i'm not a fan of group work but i have to participate myself in it. Actually it’s hard for me to sink people's tooth especially, trying to be visible even when people doesn't aware of our presence. I’d never have a chance since i was small to be liked by everyone around me, or long term relationship or any friend that being loyal to me, but i still remember there are some that could be a good friend, however it doesn't last long. Yeah, I’m not really good in making new friends.  Even now, i dun know why people usually don’t notice about my existence. But it doesn’t matter because for me, I’m still with or without them. But for a certain expanses, i still need my friend. Those selected friend, like my roommate, hanN that always willing to help me no matter what the condition is, sakinah, that really doesn’t care what will she attain in return every time she help me, agim, that accept me the way i am. Thanks my dearest friends. I know not all people are willing to sacrifice neither their time nor their money just for the sake of others. And i also didn’t aspect  them to be such kind-hearted, but i’m really surprised when this unnamed person which i respect  HER as a pious lady to be very unrespectably, displeasingly selfish, self-centred and ...... all i can say is, i’m shocked towards her attitude. But Alhamdulillah, Allah give me all this strength to survive occasionally alone and now He gave me the person that endorse me which i met two years ago. This person really completes me. And all i can say is thank you for everything that you’ve gave me and forbear in everything that we’ve been through.

kerenduan

berikut adalah senarai insan2 yg saya rindui:

• mak including everything yg mak masak dan cerita2 mak

• abah even kadang2 geram sb xmau accept my opinion dan time2 kena 'jerkah' dan jgk time abah kejut subah mcm alarm clock "ifah.ifah.ifah.ifah.ifah.ifah.ifah.ifah.(dgn nada yg sama)

• tok yg suka byk ty tp sweet sb sgt caring dan xpenah lupa ckp buang sket,byk sgt tu everytime makan even though kdg2 xsempat boh pun lg nasik lam pinggan dan juga cerita yg berulang2 pasal adik2 tok.

• lang + pak lang yg suka bwk breakfast pagi(now breakfast + aiman farouk)

• pakcu + makcu yg suka bwk cucoq udang or nasik lemak or bihun sup petang2( yg pastinya sgt sedap-undoubted).

• my bedroom -the most comfortable place,ever.

• dan setiap ruang di dalam dan di luar rumah.

ps:always miss my bobot, muhammad arfarizal arman

work + work + work + work= WORKS!

its been almost 7 months since my last entry.a huge amount of workload has been blocking my desire to write.well, here i am.writing again.
it's really different when comparing my weekends and weekdays. MONDAY-SELASA-WEDNESDAY-KHAMIS-FRIDAY vs SABTU-SUNDAY-SATURDAY-AHAD.. i tot it would be easier taking a qs.not true al all!with all the subjects like ;structure that overbear me, and measurement which seems easier that it suppose to be , working drawing that testing my patience,estimating which train me to be a good qs, building construction that makes me want to be a civil engineering school students, back in 2006-2007 and bla..bla..bla..
but alhamdullillah, i still have the strength to proceed all my responsibilities the best i can,with all the effort i gave.hope this semester's cgpa wont disappoint me.
i never forget my mom that always pray for my success,as well as abah that often challenge me to prove him my ability.
now i now the real lifestyle of a university student,experiencing it.well,it could be fun sometimes, having all the time i want to enjoy.but still need to remind myself what will hpn if i slip even a bit. because there will be no abah or mak or even kakcik and kaktih to 'sound' me if i engrossed with the 'duniawi'.
but i never forget the moment when everytime i switch on the tv, or 'passionate'with my hp.there will be a voice keep reminding me the time i'll waste and then to stop me.
now,its really hard to maintain my passion toward all those things.but i think i'm more matured now to differentiate whether it is good or bad for me and to make my own decision.may God give me all the strength till the end to survive in all the difficulties.insyaAllah..
p/s:dear mr rizal. dun be a 'small hearted'.i didnt forget u all all.a always inspire me during my difficulties.thanks dear.i luv u!

memories..

I miss our moment. Since the 1st time we met until the last day u went back to ur hometown. It really hard for me to be here without you. We're separated by time and distance.Do you know that it hurts more to count days until the moment that i can meet u again?

To tell you the truth, I'm not ready for our long distance relationship. Even we can always contact each other each second, i am still want you to be here.Yes,I'm a bit selfish. That's y i cannot afford to share you with anyone else.

I cant imagine how people stand to be away from each other for such a long time,but still, having fun. I cant hide my feelings. I miss you badly.




ps: i love so much!!betul,xtipu! :p ♥♥

LoNeLy WeEkEnDs.

I'm trying my best to suite my daily life especially weekends without you.But how come saturday and sunday suddenly arrived faster than before,i mean when u're here with me?? Weird,so weird.

ps: I LOVE YOU BOBOT

Pathetic weekend

Weekends is back again..cepat la pulak.huhu.. And me??alone kt rumah. bored..bored..bored..
supposely,weekends shud be my fav day.tp,since my boy is not here..owh,how i wish he's here now..
Lgpun,he's bz with his cousins n nephews..again, i'm jealous with them.huhu.Even nk webcam pun xsempat.Sebok je nk interframe.Syg,u know i dun like kids.Kacau je.Shooh..Shooh.. Sume nk along(which is my boy).Takpela bobot.It's not ur fault.
So, ape lagi boleh buat.Watching wonder pets is not my choice at all..huhu. Pathetic kan??
Even my sister pun tgh dating..waaa....syg,cepat la blk..I need you now..


ps:i love u syg.

I'm back!

waaa....dah lama bukak blog ni.malas la sebenarnya.

its been 1 month since im in gombak. Hari2-panjat tangga,turun bukit,lalu jambatan,jalan lagi..Baru sampai kelas. Hehe. Macam jungle tracking lak. Kelas land surveying la jauh nun hujung dunia.
Tapi yg peliknya,i've gained weight(1 kg je pun).good news actually!

emm..however,sadly,starting this week,im gonna miss my bobot like hell.he's back to penang.
awwwww..awak,npe awak tgl saye sorg2 kt sini..huhu.hujung mgu nk bt ape xde rizal??miss u already syg.

xpela, D-U-G-A-A-N...

tp...shaye jeles la..shhhh..jgn ckp kt sp2..huhu.bl dia blk kena share my bobot with someone else.
TAK BOLEH!!!huhu.apakan daya,kena jugak.xpela..kita share.95-5,oke??adil kan,kan,kan??hehe.

okelaa..sampai kt sini je la..

ps:i love u bobot.
jgn asyik mengamuk tau..hee..
xoxoxo