shame on you

i realize that involving myself in qs is equal to work with other people by grouping. About 95 % of my assignments, coursework, and bla...bla...bla... is engaging  with my group members. The weakest part is to be in the group, giving the full commitment for the group is the crucial part. i know that i'm not a fan of group work but i have to participate myself in it. Actually it’s hard for me to sink people's tooth especially, trying to be visible even when people doesn't aware of our presence. I’d never have a chance since i was small to be liked by everyone around me, or long term relationship or any friend that being loyal to me, but i still remember there are some that could be a good friend, however it doesn't last long. Yeah, I’m not really good in making new friends.  Even now, i dun know why people usually don’t notice about my existence. But it doesn’t matter because for me, I’m still with or without them. But for a certain expanses, i still need my friend. Those selected friend, like my roommate, hanN that always willing to help me no matter what the condition is, sakinah, that really doesn’t care what will she attain in return every time she help me, agim, that accept me the way i am. Thanks my dearest friends. I know not all people are willing to sacrifice neither their time nor their money just for the sake of others. And i also didn’t aspect  them to be such kind-hearted, but i’m really surprised when this unnamed person which i respect  HER as a pious lady to be very unrespectably, displeasingly selfish, self-centred and ...... all i can say is, i’m shocked towards her attitude. But Alhamdulillah, Allah give me all this strength to survive occasionally alone and now He gave me the person that endorse me which i met two years ago. This person really completes me. And all i can say is thank you for everything that you’ve gave me and forbear in everything that we’ve been through.