i miss the old u

raya haji is coming soon..im going back tomorrow morning. cant wait to be home safely. i hope i could meet rizal this coming holiday. since he's away from me, we seldom meet. especially when my beloved sister is around.even my mom dun complain much if i want to meet him.its ok, she's just want to be protective. haha.. i wish i could think like that. sometimes she worries too much. but she used to be very supportive. maybe her age has change her attitude. but she also like to judge people in negative way. she's a teacher. she shouldn't be like that. i think the only way to change her perspective way of thinking is to let her live in a big city. then she'll be more open minded. I'm sorry sis for writing bot u. i love u thats y I'm a bit disappointed when u started to be different.

tag.tag.tag.tag.tag.tag.

people loves to tag others to highlight that they are talking about them.its ok if u want to tag ur frens.it sound sweet when u do that do show that u're missing them or u're alert of them as ur goodies. but i really HATE it if u only tag ME to show others u're a great fren but in other hand,u weren't at all.i know, im a bit harsh saying this and that even it looks like at least that person still remembers u. ok,thanks babe for being a good fren.you know that im easy to be pleased. but not anymore! just because u tag my name once in a while,then totally forgot that i'm exist, doesnt sound like u're great at all. pls stop tagging me if u dun even care about me.and its obvious when my name is the last one EVERYTIME u tag ur 'BFFfff'. ok.i pretend it as a coincidence. really babe?? im stuck to be ur bff because i hate to realize that i like to be ur fren.when u talk to me, u sounds like u're giving ur full attebtion on me.and when the conversation is over...BAMM!i'm  no longer in ur list.why im that easy to be pleased??

there was a time when i've untag all my name in ur wall,and even unfren u.yup, i did that because im a weird fren that want to test u either u realise im not in ur frenlist anymore.i think within two or three months,u still unconscious bot it.but then,by the time u realize it, u still dun know the reason i did it.DO KNOW THAT I DID IT BECAUSE IM DONE WITH THE WAY U TREAT ME!

hmm..but until now, all the things u've done to me, doesnt change at all.but u used to be a nice person,never forget ur fren and kind..when i remember the old u, i really miss being ur fren babe.

deep wound

its been 3 weeks we didint spent time together as we used to. really, i feel weird when we met but pretending that we dun know each other. she supposed to be my best friend even smtime i get hurt by her. i still dun know what exactly hapning between us. there is time when i start dreaming that she spoke to me and having lunch and dinner together. its not that i cant leave without her. its just that i dun understand how she can possibly can resist doing all her activities without having me around. she used to call me all the time, ask me to accompanied her to do this and do that, asking my opinion about her design and bla..bla..bla.. but not, we rarely speak to each other, and acting like we barely know each other. its hurt when she ignores me even though im right infront of her. sometimes i say hi to her even she will eventually pretending that im not talking to her. but its ok now.im healed after time passed. its nothing to be regret for.after all, its true that friend come and go,but definitely wrong that there is will be real friend that will stay as long as i want.

you really breaks my heart.

i was shocked when u told me u want to smoke.whatt???at first, i tot u're joking.but u said that u want to smoke once in a while.and u're serious.hst my mm..deep in my heart i pray that u just want to test my reaction.but no, u're really serious.i'm scared syg, imagining that the person i love want to start a very horrible attitude. if u do love me,please don't start it.for the sake of our future.u know how much i love u syg.u really breaks my heart.

14 november 2010

abah operate hari ni.cancer buah pinggang.semua org takut sb doc ckp operation ni sgt2 high risk. lepas 6 jam tgu abah,dari pukul 11 pg sampai 5ptg, doc pgl waris encik mohamad bin sabtu.tekejut gak.mak yg sakit lutut, xlarat nk jalan, tiba2 jalan laju sgt2.yela, risau sgt sb lama sgt operation.supposely 4 jam je.then pg hdw(high dependency ward).semua org yg lepas operation masuk situ dulu sementara nk stabil.mak masuk dgn along dulu.the rest tgu kt luar.i cant imagine hw i feel that time.then, tgu punya tgu, mak keluar dr blk tu.mak ckp doc xbg pg dekat sb xsetel lg.dipendekkan cerita,last2 boleh pi tgk abah.masuk je dlm ward tu,npk ramai yg br lepas operation.kesian sgt.semua org npk baring dlm keadaan sakit.horror sgt.abah pulak dah sedar,bius dah habis.tp abah xbenti2 pgl mak.sedih sgt2..mlm tu, xboleh tgu abah.kesian kt abah,dh la sakit sgt2,xdak sapa tgu pulak tu..pg esok,dok call, ckp abah pindah masuk icu.abah mcm xbp sedar sb doc bg ubat tahan sakit and morphine.semgu dok still bg ubat tahan sakit.tp makin lama makin kurang.lepas 2 kali masuk icu, in 3 weeks, abah boleh discharge.alhamdulillah, now abah dah makin ok.sepanjang abah kt hospital, my mum n i yg teman.mlm2 abah xboleh tido sb sakit.everyday, i pray to god and hope that i can share his pain.i cant stand looking at him, suffering because of the surgery.tambah pulak, kena tebuk a few parts sb paru2 abah berair.mcm2 dugaan abah dpt.hopefully, lepas ni abah xkan kena operation dah.

a moment

even we didn't manage to spend our time together very often, 

we still could steal a few second to be together. but still,

we fight, we laugh, we talk and we try to compose

everything in a few seconds.but in less than one week

, again, we'll be separated.but this time, it would be a  

very very very long time..hmm..

ps:already missing u dear.

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