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meja org nk exam

subject2 yg saya sayangi dan menyayangi saya ialah:

• Islamic worldview
• Building Construction 1
• Principle of Structure 1
• Measurement
• Environmental Material Science
• Principle of Estimating 1

sekian terima kasih.

döublE mindEd

i was wondering how would it be if i didnt manage to further my study in uia, instead i'll be taking twinning programme for becoming a teacher. maybe it wont be this hard to study 10 subjects *which i did it in the last minutes* along with a large 'bundle' of assignments. i'm not saying that i'm regretting it all of sudden after the whole semester has past through my time.. i never tot that it would be that hard to survive and achieve the goals that i've picked from the begining. i know it is too late to think about it.but it's just a moment that i spend to think all the options that i've took. does it worth it? 

i miss the moment when i'm hoping that i'm not a school student anymore. eventhough it was the hardest moment i've been through, but i still have time to see mak and abah almost every week.but now, i'm hundreds miles away from them..i miss them more than they can miss me.

grand finale

finally,disaster has come..apa lagi, final exam la..

paling best ada 8 paper for final..

dekat2 pulak tu gap.aduyaii...

please habis cepat2 exam.xsabar nk balik rumah..lama gila xblk kedah..miss mak and abah so damm much!

tp, if dah habis exam sedih jgk sb rizal pun habis exam, which means dia dah habis terus.

emmmm...

saya dalam dilema..

mana ada jambu,hensem je.heee

mcm hensem pulak.heee

ps:nk date! nak date!

worst news ever

i know abah have a lot of disease and i tot he'll be better with all the medications the doctor gave to him. instead,last week mum told me that the doctor has discover the main cause why abah has blood in his urine is because he got a cancer. i cant imagine how should i act, when i know about the news. and the worst thing ever hpn is, the day of abah's operation, i cant be at the hospital because i got final exams. how i wish i could be there with all my siblings. i hope things will be better and abah will be fine. i cant bear thinking abah is suffering with the disease. ya Allah, pls let abah recover soon.i'll do anything to exchange with abah's health.

THE PURPOSE OF LIFE

Usually, people live their lives without ever reflecting on life itself or its meaning for them. Their lives may be full of activities or even nothing. They may marry, have children, run a business, or become scientists or musicians, without ever obtaining any degree of understanding of why they do these things. They also are forgetting their responsible or their job towards Allah the almighty because trying their best to achieve their goals without realizing the main purpose of life. But what is actually the real purpose of life. Opinion takes different perception but it does not always give the right answer.  

As in my life, I experienced a lot of events that relate most probably with something that I didn’t plan to do so. When I was a kid, I’ve been taught that our life is not only revolved around us. We must think whether the consequences will bring more harm than good either to ourselves or to others. I asked myself, why can’t we think about ourselves first? Why must we consider the implicit of everything we want to do? Then, when I started to live by my own, as I grow older, I learn that if we don’t like the way people treat us, never treat people in such way. Being selfish will never lead us to victory. So I learn a lot of things about the purpose of life. Allah has created me to be His obedient servant, and to obey my parents, follow the guidelines.

I know I’m not a perfect servant of Allah. I do mistakes, a lot than doing the right thing. That’s why I’m trying my best to fulfil my purpose of life. It is not easy to complete the main purpose of life even we have the guideline. It looks simple as a hard nut to crack, but it is not. The five pillars of Islam, is the main guideline. Alhamdulillah, I still have my parents to remind me everytime I slip from the right path.

We seek the protection of Allah from every evil thing. I found from the internet about Allah mentions to us in the Holy Quran, "And to Allah belongs the dominion of the heavens and the earth, and Allah is over all things competent. Indeed, in the creation of the heavens and the earth and the alternation of the night and the day are signs for those of understanding-Who remember Allah while standing or sitting or [lying] on their sides and give thought to the creation of the heavens and the earth, [saying], "Our Lord, You did not create this aimlessly; exalted are You [above such a thing]; then protect us from the punishment of the Fire." Surah 3: Ayahs 189-191. Truly, when you see the design of all that Allah created, you realize it is very powerful and very precise. Something very powerful and very precise which means that something beyond our own calculation and imagination that cannot be foolish.

So while I’m thinking how great the creation of Allah is I start realize how humble I am and how ungrateful I am for not being fully responsible to Him. My desire sometime has becoming the priority instead of my responsible. But still, I’m thanking to Him because still love me and give a lot of luxury. Maybe that’s how He reminds me about my purpose of life. And I’ll always pray to Him so that he will lead me to keep on track and fulfil my purpose of life. InsyaAllah.

mad_ne-yo

She's starin' at me
I'm sittin', wonderin' what she's thinkin'
Mmmmmm
Nobody's talkin' 'cause talkin' just turns into screamin'
Ohhh
And now is i'm yellin' over her, she's yellin' over me
All that that means
is neither of us is listening
[and what's even worse]
that we don't even remember why were fighting.

 So both of us are mad for...

Nothin' [fighting for]
Nothin' [crying for]
Nothin' [whooaaa]
But we wont let it go for nothin'
[no not for]
Nothin'
This should be nothin' to a love like what we got
Ohhh baby...

I know sometimes it's gonna rain
but baby, can we make up now
'cause I can't sleep through the pain
[can't sleep through the pain].

Girl, i don't wanna go to bed
[mad at you]
And i don't want you to go to bed
[mad at me]
No, i don't wanna go to bed
[mad at you]
And i don't want you to go to bed
[mad at me]
Ohhh no no no...

And it gets me upset, girl
when your constantly accusing.
[askin' questions like you've already known]
We're fighting this war, baby
when both of us are losing.
[This ain't the way that love is supposed to go].

Whoahhhh.....
[what happened to workin' it out]
We've fall into this place
where you ain't backin' down and i ain't backin' down
so what the hell do we do now...

It's all for..

Nothin' [fighting for]
Nothin' [crying for]
Nothin' [whooaaa]
but we won't let it go for
nothin'...
[no not for]
Nothin'
This should be nothin' to a love like what we got
Ohhh baby...

I know sometimes it's gonna rain
but baby, can we make up now
'cause I can't sleep through the pain
[can't sleep through the pain].

Girl, i don't wanna go to bed
[mad at you]
And i don't want you to go to bed
[mad at me]
No, i don't wanna go to bed
[mad at you]
And i don't want you to go to bed
[mad at me]
Ohhh no no no...

Oh, baby this love ain't gonna be perfect
[perfect, perfect, ohh ohh]
and just how good it's gonna be
we can fuss and we can fight long as everythings allright between us...
before we go to sleep.

Baby, we're gonna be happy.

Baby I know sometimes it's gonna rain
but baby, can we make up now
'cause I can't sleep through the pain
[can't sleep through the pain].

Girl, i don't wanna go to bed
[mad at you]
And i don't want you to go to bed
[mad at me]
No, i don't wanna go to bed
[mad at you]
And i don't want you to go to bed
[mad at me]
Ohhh no no no...

nobody's perfect.even sometimes i tot that we're the most perfect couple ever, we still create our own mistakes. i know he loves me as much as i love him but we still have a lot more things to improve our relationship. yes, i admit we fight, we  hate each other, we blame others fault almost everytime we're quarreling and we even warring to each other.but for what reasons we did that?as a matter of fact, we dun even realize that we're fighting for nothing.it happens all the time. actually, its what people do when they're in love. because when we consciously start to realize our own mistakes, the only thing we can do is we laugh,laugh to our stupidity. but believe me, its really strengthen our relationship cause we now that no matter how horrible or terrible our reaction on that 'war' deep inside our heart, no one can replace this person.
i'm really sorry if i hurt u too much.i'm lucky to have u as my partner coz u're a very understanding and patient person.please forgive all my mistakes.


ps: i'll always love you.xoxo

shame on you

i realize that involving myself in qs is equal to work with other people by grouping. About 95 % of my assignments, coursework, and bla...bla...bla... is engaging  with my group members. The weakest part is to be in the group, giving the full commitment for the group is the crucial part. i know that i'm not a fan of group work but i have to participate myself in it. Actually it’s hard for me to sink people's tooth especially, trying to be visible even when people doesn't aware of our presence. I’d never have a chance since i was small to be liked by everyone around me, or long term relationship or any friend that being loyal to me, but i still remember there are some that could be a good friend, however it doesn't last long. Yeah, I’m not really good in making new friends.  Even now, i dun know why people usually don’t notice about my existence. But it doesn’t matter because for me, I’m still with or without them. But for a certain expanses, i still need my friend. Those selected friend, like my roommate, hanN that always willing to help me no matter what the condition is, sakinah, that really doesn’t care what will she attain in return every time she help me, agim, that accept me the way i am. Thanks my dearest friends. I know not all people are willing to sacrifice neither their time nor their money just for the sake of others. And i also didn’t aspect  them to be such kind-hearted, but i’m really surprised when this unnamed person which i respect  HER as a pious lady to be very unrespectably, displeasingly selfish, self-centred and ...... all i can say is, i’m shocked towards her attitude. But Alhamdulillah, Allah give me all this strength to survive occasionally alone and now He gave me the person that endorse me which i met two years ago. This person really completes me. And all i can say is thank you for everything that you’ve gave me and forbear in everything that we’ve been through.